Michael Burkard

Eventually

Lee Harvey Oswald could be heard reading Hemingway's
"The Killers" in English to some Russian students:
an old wire recording which had haphazardly survived
and needed no decoding.

It was better than hearing a famous actor read the story,
it was actually kind of chilling, not fun, spooky
like the word "eventually" feels like the wind sounds
sometimes, like tonight when I meant to leave the office
early but have lingered like the snow falling under the
streetlight.

I bought (my parents bought) a very white jacket when I
was in the third grade; it seemed extremely special and
one of a kind. The jacket wasn't corduroy but had ridges
almost like corduroy. But even by third grade I must
not have been making another kind of grade, because I could
not bring myself to wear the jacket to school, or even
around my neighborhood. The jacket was so special I thought
I would receive some kind of unwarranted attention, unwanted
attention; the jacket would be ruined not literally but in
some figurative fashion.

But who was kidding whom — I was afraid the jacket would be
torn and smeared by someone or someones, and I would be
smeared or smashed for wearing it.

At the same time I didn't keep the jacket in a special place,
nor did I visit it secretly. The jacket didn't even get to
experience what "secretly" would be like. It just stayed in
an embarrassed place, as if betrayed by a friend or a face or
a has-been.

Michael Burkard (1947-2024) was born in Rome, New York, in 1947. He is the author of numerous collections, including lucky coat anywhere (Nightboat Books, 2011); Envelope of Night: Selected and Uncollected Poems, 1966–1990 (Nightboat Books, 2008); and Unsleeping (Sarabande Books, 2001).

Burkard was the recipient of the Alice Fay Di Castagnola Award and the Whiting Writers’ Award, as well as fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts and the New York State Foundation for the Arts. He taught at several institutions, including Syracuse University, and was a founding advisory board member of Nightboat Books.

Thank you to Mary Ruefle for sharing Michael’s poetry with us.